April 4, 2014

Subject: update

To: Dr. Brian

I called Dr. Halle this evening because the pain was so intense.  He agreed to see me after hours for an emergency appointment.  Due to distance and rush hour, it took about an hour and a half to get to his office.  [It was my first appointment with this doctor—a naturopath oncologist.  He went to medical school but is also an energy worker trained in many modalities, including acupuncture and craniosacral work.]  I was with Dr. Halle for close to three hours.  He went over with me in detail the results from my blood test and CAT scan.  It is worse than what he was able to tell me on the phone…

I HAVE METASTASIZED CANCER IN THE SKIN OF THE LEFT BREAST

I HAVE METASTASIZED CANCER IN THE LIVER

I HAVE METASTASIZED CANCER IN MY LUNGS

I HAVE METASTASIZED BONE CANCER IN MULTIPLE PLACES

Most of the cancer is in the light to moderate stages, but it’s hard to know for sure.

The doctor did some energy work on my body with his hands.  This was effective enough in reducing my pain to a level where I did not have to be rushed to the emergency room.  He outlined a new cancer treatment protocol that I’ll begin very soon.  It will take some time to see if these strategies will be effective.

Dr. Halle could sense large amounts of anger in my body, particularly in my liver—which is quite enlarged.  I have been aware of this anger for a long time.  I usually turn it all against myself.  I have tried for decades to connect with the murderous rage inside me, but it has to be organic and not forced, and I have mostly felt unsuccessful in this regard.  However, releasing this rage is a pretty important factor in my healing.  I will have to ask the universe to “show me the way.”  It is usually pretty good when I ask.  [Often, when I want or need something, I pray to the universe and ask it to align with my intentions.  Usually the universe provides, not always immediately, and not always directly, but usually I do receive what I requested.  When I have needed something for a long time and have not received, I often realize that I never asked.  Or I didn’t ask in a direct and clear enough way.]  Dr. Halle acknowledged the connection between releasing my anger and healing.  He began teaching me different tools I could use to release this anger.

I know the situation sounds very grim, but things keep lining up in my favor.  I will just take it day by day.  What will be will be . . .

blessings,

Laura